This past week has been tough for me. I was getting stuff done but I couldn’t seem to keep up. I was waking up late, which led to a shortened morning routine. I was not on top of my meals like I have been. I skipped the gym because I needed to make up hours at work. I just couldn’t keep to my schedule. Looking back at the weekend prior, I did nothing to reset and recharge myself for the week I was currently drowning in. It’s no wonder I couldn’t get my shit together.
Frustrated and on the verge of a breakdown, I contemplated cancelling all my plans for this weekend to get myself back on track. But I’ll tell you why I didn’t.
Yes I believe in putting yourself first. Yes I believe in self care. But I also believe in promises, commitments and discipline. I made commitments to events this weekend. I promised people I would show up and take care of various to-dos.
Sometimes the mind tricks us into thinking something is good for us when it isn’t. I wanted so badly to bail, to the point where I wrote out the text apologizing to my friends. I came up with a game plan of what I was going to do instead of everything I promised leading up to the weekend ahead. But there was this tug in my gut. I knew I couldn’t. I knew that I was letting people down. I knew I wouldn’t feel good about myself in the end.
So what do you do when you are overwhelmed and rung dry?
I finished an afternoon meeting on Friday, so overwhelmed by the week I almost broke down the first minute I had to myself. I couldn’t bail on my friends but I couldn’t make the time for myself either.
I then decided to change my perspective. Everything that I am doing this weekend is supposed to be exciting. Carving pumpkins with friends, attending a wedding, and spending a day in NYC. I could go into it with a stressful attitude, or I could go into it the way i should and probably will feel: excited and grateful.
Fast forward to post-weekend: it was a fucking great weekend. I got to reconnect with people I hadn’t seen in years, celebrate new beginnings with friends, and take a day trip to one of my favorite cities.
Life can get overwhelming, and it’s hard to keep up with it all the time. But something I’ve learned over the past year is that your mind is more powerful than you think. You might feel drained as if you can’t keep up. You might dread what you do with your day to day. But it doesn’t have to be that way. Someone in the world is dying to be in your position. Perspective is everything.