Another 5am blog post coming at you.
Recently I’ve been a little off. Usually when this happens, I’m falling into a rut. Not sure what causes these ruts for me, but they happen to all of us. Routine feels good until it gets boring. Not having a routine is exhilarating until it gets reckless. It’s all a balancing act.
Everyone is different, but my major warning sign that I’m developing some unhealthy habits is loss of control. It starts with something fairly simple like not being able to prioritize my to-do list. This can mean I’m accomplishing the wrong things or I’m unable to do anything because of overwhelm.
Something I’m learning to be true is that growth is not consistent. It ebbs and flows. The best thing I’ve done for myself is allowing these dips to happen. What I mean by that is it’s okay to not be perfect all the time. It’s okay to adjust your schedule. It’s okay to relax. It’s okay to do something different. It’s okay to let it go.
The past week and a half I have let myself oversleep. This has turned my relaxing mornings into stress-filled ones. I haven’t allowed myself time in the morning to fully wake up and prepare for my day. I end up rushing, not doing my hair or makeup, caring a little less about my outfit and all of this has set me up for some pretty stressful days over the past couple weeks.
This morning I woke up at 4:15am. I didn’t set an alarm, it’s just when I woke up. As it was earlier than I was expecting to get up today, I laid in bed for an hour watching YouTube videos. After an hour I already felt unfulfilled, so I decided to get up and start writing. And here I am.
One reason I love blogging is because it allows me to study my patterns. Putting myself out there online, I’m not going to let everyone know the ins and outs of my life. This forces me to back up and see major themes that are occurring and share what I’m doing about them.
I’ve realized that these ruts I get myself in are unavoidable and happen. It doesn’t mean I’ve done anything wrong, it’s just a sign that it’s time to readjust.