It’s crazy to think that three years ago I really wasn’t that concerned with my future. Being 25 now, one thought that’s always floating in the back of my head is ‘am I doing enough with my life?’
Being or doing ‘enough’ is especially difficult when you’re not even sure where you want to go in your lifetime. If I’m being honest, I have a million ideas of things that I want to do, but I have no clear vision on what direction I want to go in right now and that’s terrifying for me. It’s terrifying for a lot of my friends. Sometimes I feel like we’re all just fighting to stay out of last place.
I think A LOT. My mind wanders A LOT. My friends sometimes catch me dazing off into the distance because I’m so in my head about things. To a certain degree it’s self-sabotaging to be so caught up in the ‘what ifs’ of life. One thing that I’ve always found difficult but very rewarding is to break that habit and come back down to earth for a bit. One way I do this is by practicing gratitude, it forces me to focus on the here and now.
I feel like I’m constantly daydreaming, and I tend to forget about all the beautiful things I have in this current moment. I’ll think more about what I don’t have and the people who are making more moves than I am. I also know that focusing on only one aspect of my life isn’t going to make me happy. That’s the other annoying thing about 25, your career feels like the only thing that makes you feel seen.
Anyways, I’ve decided to share my list of things that I am grateful for, hopefully it will help and inspire you to do the same and live more presently.
I was raised and taught that family comes first always. I’m grateful to have parents who have gotten out of bed in the middle of the night to drive to me during some of the scariest moments of my life. I’m grateful to have a brother who literally NEVER complains if I ask him for help, and honestly shows me how a real man should treat me (he’s only 17 btw). I’m grateful for my younger sister, one of the few people I feel so deeply connected to, like I never need to explain myself she just gets it. I’m grateful to have my older sister who teaches me patience and that life doesn’t need to be so serious.
I’m grateful that I have friends in my life who literally make my heart throb. Friends who actually bring me back down to Earth. When we spend time together, I find myself stopping to take it all in and appreciate the fact that everyone I love is together and having fun. I’m grateful to have people in my life who know that I’m actually a little insane and are totally okay with that. I’m grateful that I have such a deep connection with my best friends. Fuck, I’m grateful that I have so many people who love me.
The Little Things
It doesn’t take a lot to make me happy. My best friend always makes fun of me for this; one person could hold the door for me and my morning is MADE. That’s what I’m grateful for though. The fact that little things get me excited. Grabbing dinner with an old friend, receiving unexpected gifts or messages, being able to sit in silence with someone you love, to name a few things.
The Big Things
I’m grateful for the ability to put a roof over my head and food in my mouth, to own a car, to have gone to school, to have a job. Sometimes I get so used to having these things that I forget how many people aren’t able to. I’m grateful I have the ability and flexibility to change my life if I want to.
I’m grateful I’ve had so many opportunities in my life to learn and grow. I’m grateful I’ve gotten to travel where I have traveled and meet all the people I have met. I’m grateful for all my negative and positive experiences because it has gotten me to the point where I am at today. I am grateful that, because of my experiences, I have the willingness and desire to grow.